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[22 Dec 2004|06:37pm] |
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okay, i hooked up with HIM over the weekend.
one of my friends got jealous because they liked me.
that person spoke to me today asking me if i would be willing to talk to one of HIS exes.
this person also told me some things about HIM that weren't that great.
what should i do?
i really like HIM...
but what of these things are true...?
i need your guys help.
♥
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[07 Dec 2004|05:47pm] |
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update = computer is fixed
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[29 Nov 2004|03:50pm] |
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i feel so bad for neglecting my journal.
oh well.
i like her, and i her she liked me, but who knows for sure, not the person that needs to, ME!!!
::sigh:: okay, well im at school, damn we got some nice laptops, i never knew.
i should come to the library more often.
okay, well, im outtie. lots of comments please, because if you don't i will close down my journal.
FOREVER!!!
♥
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[17 Nov 2004|11:19pm] |
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i fractured my wrist...or something.
i gotta go to the bone doctor to chizzleck it out.
i had thee BEST dance class,
we were breaking down, oh shit!
anyway, um...im really bored and tired.
thee end.
p.s. i miss my old life. but if loosing it has taught me anything, it's that next time, dont get caught!!!
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[13 Nov 2004|11:46pm] |
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Mase::Breath, stretch, shake |
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well...i havent updated in a while, so i thought i would.
i had a pretty good night, got drunk, but not too fucked up,
we're now studying greek mythology in english which is really interesting,
im so sorry i missed jill's bday partay,
i dyed my hair blue, even though it was supposed to come out purple.
i got a job at my doctor's office,
and um, im sure there's more but i dont know what right now.
comment pleaase.
i need purpose in my life.
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[01 Nov 2004|04:28pm] |
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i don't have aim anymore. not allowed to have a life anymore.
if any of you guys want to communicate with me you'll have to do it through email
or my journal.
email: Buddhaisfat31@nyc.rr.com
anywho...I have dance class dance tonight, i hope it will be good.
Halloween wasn't that great.
Boo hoo.
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[30 Oct 2004|04:07pm] |
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I can't take this shit anymore.
I'm running away.
I remember last time I said that I didn't do it,
but this time i'm serious.
I can actually relate to Bad Habit by The Dresden Dolls...
biting keeps your words at bay
tending to the sores that stay
happiness is just a gash away
when i open a familiar scar
pain goes shooting like a star
comfort hasn't failed to follow so far...
and you might say it's self-indulgent
you might say its self-destructive
but, you see, it's more productive
than if i were to be healthy
& pens and penknives take the blame
crane my neck & scratch my name
but the ugly marks
are worth the momentary gain...
when i jab a sharpened object in
choirs of angels seem to sing
hymns of hate in memorandum
and you might say it's self-indulgent
and you might say it's self-destructive
but, you see, it's more productive
than if i were to be happy
and sappy songs about sex and cheating
bland accounts of two lovers meeting
make me want to give mankind a beating
and you might say it's self-destructive
but, you see, i'd kick the bucket
sixty times before i'd kick the habit
and as the skin rips off i cherish the revolting thought
that even if i quit
there's not a chance in hell i'd stop
and anyone can see the signs
mittens in the summertime
thank you for your pity, you are too kind
and you might say its self-inflicted
but you see that's contradictive
why on earth would anyone practice self destruction?
and pain opinions are sitcom feeding
they dont know that their minds are teething
makes me want to give mankind a beating
i'm tried bandages and sinking
i've tried gloves and even thinking
i've tried vaseline
i've tried everything
and no-one cares if your back is bleeding
they're concerned with their hair receding
looking back it was all maltreating
every thought that occurred misleading
makes me want to give myself a beating....
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[28 Oct 2004|10:58pm] |
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Ciara:;My goodies |
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tomorrow's gonna kick ass
i might be getting my teeth (vamp teeth)
and my cat eye contacts
and drinking..dont know though.
im so confused with the whole boy/girl situation...
oh well.
tomorrow is parent teacher confrences, dun dun dunnnn!
p.s. today i went to Sketch's dance class.
i couldnt do the moves for some reason
and it made me so sad i wanted to cry.
♥
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[25 Oct 2004|10:40pm] |
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The Dresden Dolls::Coin operated boy |
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I got a 90 on my Spanish test, 95.6 on my History test, and a 83 on my Science test. That deserves a huuuuge happy face. :)
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[23 Oct 2004|11:05pm] |
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the dresden dolls::gravity |
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im going back to dance class.
steps on broadway.
go fuckin me.
friday kicked fucking ass.
sorry lauren if i kicked you in the forehead.
being drunk is always best.
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[19 Oct 2004|03:56pm] |
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moulin rouge::love medely |
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im in love...i think.
i dont wanna jump to conclusions,
but i sure can't stop thinking about a certain someone.
♥
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[16 Oct 2004|01:12am] |
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dave matthews band:;crash into |
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drunk...sick...great night...xcept for the pukin.
thee end.
comment if you wish, and if you do, say something nice, or dont sayanything at all.
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[14 Oct 2004|05:37pm] |
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a perfect circle::judith |
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really fucking pissed.
school can kiss my ass, i quit anyway!
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[11 Oct 2004|06:10pm] |
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air::highschool lover |
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today was okay.
i guess the highlight was i got my new nipple ring.
otherwise, it was blah.
i got to see some of my friends as well.
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[10 Oct 2004|09:08am] |
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dave matthews band::crash into me |
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last night was great.
matt...matt...matt.
::sigh::
and don't worry Syl, its not your, matt, haha.
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[09 Oct 2004|09:36am] |
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dashboard confessional::the place you have come to fear most |
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made out with 4 people yesterday mainly
because everyone played spin the bottle when i was gone
and i felt left out
and because i was really horny.
no i am not a slut, just that the hormones are one marijuana.
like me.
okay well chickadees, comment if you will.
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[07 Oct 2004|06:30pm] |
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c.s.i. |
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[06 Oct 2004|07:15pm] |
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yankees game |
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today two of my friends cried. Lauren and Gilbert (a.k.a. Gibby)
i am pissed at Hendrix, Pheonix, and Joe. They can call go to hell.
thee end.
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